What didn't kill me
Left me cold enough to live this lie
Now i drift desensitized reality has
Had it's way with this time
Confidence now lost in comfort
Of familiar habits
I know it's destructive
But i can not get past this barricade
I boiled up inside too high
I've got to pull out of numbing phase
Hold down this fear
Push back self doubt
I'm most afraid that i will fall to failure
So much to say can't get it out
It's all a waste chaste
Forced to indignant taste
Self propelled rejection
It's more than i can take (right now)
So sick of hiding from what i can't face
So sick of hiding from what i can't face
I must get through this wall of insecurity
The thought of rejection more than
I can take and i've got to get out of this numb phase
Set numb aside