Help me forget

You always looked back
Until that day
When I looked into your eyes
You were so far away
Clear as day
There was nobody home
I grit my teeth
I was alone

It’s been years
And I can’t get you out of my thoughts
I want to forget
My stomachs tied in knots

Am I guilty
Of wanting to forget?
I’m cursed
With that look in your eyes

A demon inside
You were reborn to die
His hand gripped your soul
And tried to take it all away
A demon inside
I saw the struggle in your eye
It never goes away
Nothing gold can stay

You always looked back
Until that day

When I looked into your eyes
You were so far away
This disease has taken you
And I can’t ask you to stay

This still creeps into my mind
How the fuck could I forget
When you asked me
“Can I die yet”